Get Rid Of Slimy girlS!

"Why isn't my life like a situation comedy? Why don't I have a bunch of friends with nothing better to do but drop by and instigate wacky adventures? Why aren't my conversations peppered with spontaneous witticisms? Why don't my friends demonstrate heartfelt concern for my well being when I have problems? ...I gotta get my life some writers." calvin (calvin & hobbes)

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Life As House

"I always thought of myself as a house. I was always what I lived in. It didn't need to be big. It didn't even need to be beautiful. It just needed to be mine. I became what I was meant to be. I built myself a life. I built myself a house." - Kevin Kline as George in Life as a House

A respectable tearjerker, Life as a House is a welcome throwback to angst-ridden family dramas like Ordinary People and Terms of Endearment. It falls short of those modern classics, but you'll probably still need Kleenex if you appreciate Kevin Kline's underrated dramatic skills. (Just in case you might have forgotten what a first-rate actor Kevin Kline is, "Life As A House" should refresh your memory.) As the title suggests, Kline's project is a broad metaphor for repairing damaged lives from the foundation up. Playing an architect with terminal cancer, he gives an Oscar®-caliber performance, reaching out to his estranged, nihilistic son (future Star Wars star Hayden Christensen) and ex-wife (Kristin Scott-Thomas) as he wrecks and rebuilds the Malibu cliff-top home that contained his most painful memories.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

wishful thinking

"nasa huli ang pagsisisi" (sigh..) sooo unfortunately true!

my dad and i finally decided that we should just end the business. he's to busy with his own job and i'm not really happy handling everything by myself. it should be a win-win situation, but it doesn't matter now. "what now?", i asked myself constantly for a full week now. "i don't know", i'm lying ofcourse, but i don't know where to start, it's too complicated.

i can ask jj if there's still an open position at my previous job. (i love that job though the pay is not that much!) or i can go back in the states at my own expense. (take note, at my own expense coz the last time i went to the u.s. my dad paid for everything! thanks pa!) but it's different now, totally different!

i have to decide. this is for my own good, my own future.


Right now, I'm totally freaking out deep inside...
My emotions are so 'effed' up that I have to wear them on my sleeves...

i need some happy pills : )

i wasn't able to create a blog yesterday because uhmmm i dunno.. i forgot? too busy? what the hell i didn't even know what happened yesterday. (actually i do, i'm just tryin to forget about it, especially the morning part of yesterday!) but the later part of that evening was a blast. Being with great friends kiko and junel and the rest of the people at jungle java was an absolute stress free gimik! (thanks to ate arleen for being so accomodating! love yah!)

word of the day:

MORSEL - Etymology: Middle English, from Anglo-French, diminutive of mors bite, from Latin morsus, from mordEre to bite -- more at MORDANT1 : a small piece of food : BITE2 : a small quantity : FRAGMENT

why in the hell did i chose this word? here's the story behind it.

6 in the fucking am yesterday, my cellphone was vibrating and needed much attention from me. 6 messages. I look at it thinking who will text me at this time? "Could iit be God?" nahhhhh anyways, i opened my inbox and it was from the following people" raymund, kiko, vince, vince, chase, and some number i don't even know of. Ofcourse i'm not goin to disclose the rest of my messages right? Let's go back with the word morsel, kiko was the one who sent me this long text messages about him being sad and alone (a manic-depressive condition characterized by extreme depression, etc. etc.) and at the end of his text message was;

"Couldn't God spare me a MORSEL of happines?" (depressing yet so true) and it hit me!

Are we really happy?

think people... think.

Sunday, October 08, 2006

of booze and bois

and finally i'm here : ) (like anyone would care...) gracias to thons for giving me this fucking idea to have my own blogspot (another time to waste). i'm not really sure what to put in here but who knows.. let's keep the ball rollin shall we.

bangenge! (word of the day) - super drunk with a twist! (the kind of hang over that hurts so bad!)

that will be me for today. went out with highschool friends, highschool straight friends i mean, and fuck they look soo older than me (hehehehe) but it's nice to play catch up with old pals from time to time, especially when they're hot as hell (sorry guys.. i just need to say that!) we ended up getting drunk and wasted like the good ol' times : ) and it never occur to me how much i love drinking with straight guys, they can be boring at times but what the heck.. they're my pals!

so i woke up around 3 in the afternoon, hungry, thirsty and badlly needin some aspirins! "the worst is yet to come", as i usually say to myself and it is true... the fridge is empty and there are no left over! what a day! that's fine, i can live with that but there better be some soda in the fridge! (gulp, gulp, gulp,) ahhhh! soda! my life isn't complete without devouring an entire 1.5 L of soda (pepsi, coke or whatever!) it's time for ipod updates (bought some "fake" cds)... see yah!

watashiwa marius san ne : 0