wishful thinking

"nasa huli ang pagsisisi" (sigh..) sooo unfortunately true!

my dad and i finally decided that we should just end the business. he's to busy with his own job and i'm not really happy handling everything by myself. it should be a win-win situation, but it doesn't matter now. "what now?", i asked myself constantly for a full week now. "i don't know", i'm lying ofcourse, but i don't know where to start, it's too complicated.

i can ask jj if there's still an open position at my previous job. (i love that job though the pay is not that much!) or i can go back in the states at my own expense. (take note, at my own expense coz the last time i went to the u.s. my dad paid for everything! thanks pa!) but it's different now, totally different!

i have to decide. this is for my own good, my own future.